What I have Learned

Wow I can't believe it has been this long since i have posted. Corey and I celebrated our 6th Anniversary on October 6th! Crazy how time flies! Other then that not much else has happened. I have been writing my book a little more, and we were still giving our selves a break from trying to have a baby.

In this time I have learned alot about myself. I have also realized more how much Heavenly
Father knows what we need, and when we need it!
I really learned that this week at work. I got a promotion at my job. It is a job I have been wanting, but I never pushed myself to apply for it . Now I know why. It wasn't the right time for me. So now I really realize, Heavenly Father knows more of when things are right for me, then I do. He really does mean that things will happen when the time is right, but it's not my timing it's his. So the best thing for me is to just let it go, and trust that he is going to let it happen when he knows the timing is right for me. I just really need to strengthen my Faith in him, and find out what he wants me to learn during this time. For so long it's like you say ok I am giving it to him, but are you really? Giving it to him means not that you give up, but that you are letting him take the load for awhile. That you are also saying to him, ok I am going to keep on doing what I need to, but I am not going to worry if it does or doesn't happen. Also saying I know you will do what is best for me right now, because I trust you with everything.
So for now I am giving Heavenly Father the load, and saying what do I need to learn right now?

Gratitude

So I just finished a book the other day, Not My Type by Melanie Jacobson. It was not only a funny romantic comedy, but it also has a good message in it. In the book the main character's father challenges her to write a thank you note to a different person every week. He tells her."If you can focus on the things you do have, the things that are going right for you, then maybe you won't worry so much about the things that sometimes don't." I think that is so true. Sometimes I think we get more caught up in the things we don't have rather then remembering the things we do have. We forget that we actually have so much to be grateful for. We forget as the book says that we have alot of things going right in our lives. I think if we would show more gratitude towards people, it could make a big difference in our lives. It would show us we truly do have things we have been blessed with. Our attitudes, and hearts would change.

Gratitude

So I just finished a book the other day, Not My Type by Melanie Jacobson. It was not only a funny romantic comedy, but it also has a good message in it. In the book the main character's father challenges her to write a thank you note to a different person every week. He tells her."If you can focus on the things you do have, the things that are going right for you, then maybe you won't worry so much about the things that sometimes don't." I think that is so true. Sometimes I think we get more caught up in the things we don't have rather then remembering the things we do have. We forget that we actually have so much to be grateful for. We forget as the book says that we have alot of things going right in our lives. I think if we would show more gratitude towards people, it could make a big difference in our lives. It would show us we truly do have things we have been blessed with. Our attitudes, and hearts would change.

Spiritual Patterns

I want to start this one off by saying, I am so grateful for a loving Heavenly Father. Sometimes we don't think Heavenly Father knows what is best for us. We want to have all the control, and we think things should come when we want them to. Heavenly Father sees the whole picture, where we do not. He knows when we need certain people or things to come into our lives. I remember before I met Corey. I was scared I would never find a husband. That trial at the time was a big test of my Faith. I wrote in my journal about a blessing I had. In the blessing it said that I would need this Faith for future trials in my life, and that I would see a pattern in this. Here I am 8 years later, and I am seeing that pattern again. So why do I fear? The last time I had a trial like this I recieved the most amazing reward, my husband. Sometimes we just need to step back and say ok Heavenly Father I trust you, and I leave this in your hands. You know whats best for me, and I need to trust that.

Growing and Learning

I know I say this every time, but I am so grateful for my friends and family! I really appreciate all the love and support they have shown me!
So far I have learned so much during this break. I have learned alot about myself. My strengths, weaknesses, and how to use some of the talents Heavenly Father has given me. It has been really nice to concentrate on other things, and not worry about the things I can't control. My husband has been amazing throughout this journey! He is my rock! This has definitely tried our marriage, but it has also made it stronger. I am so grateful Heavenly Father blessed me with such an amazing husband.
So I have also decided during this break that I want to learn some new skills. I want to learn how to make cake bites, scrapbook picture books, and crafty things for my house. I think this will be fun and get my mind off things. I also am working on a fiction novel. It has always been a dream of mine, to have a book published! So I am excited to work on making my dream come true!

I know I say this everytime, but I am so grateful for all my friends and family! They are truly amazing!

Nana

Yesterday was the 6th anniversary of my sweet Nana's death. The day we had to say goodbye to her was one of the hardest I have ever had. My Nana was always there for me. She had a heart of gold. She always gave all she had to her family. My mom tells me stories about how she was one of the first people to meet me. We had a bond that couldn't be broken. Nana would give the best hugs! You always felt her love so strongly. This may seem impossible to some, but I have seen my sweet Nana in my dreams. She brings so much comfort to me. Sometimes I can even feel her near me. She came to me in my dreams with a beautiful little girl! I knew in that second she was mine. Nana didn't have to say it in my dream. I just felt so strongly about it, I still do. Even though she isn't here physically, I know she is helping me through this journey. I still feel her love and spirit near me. What a special gift that is. I love you Nana! You will always be in my heart and thoughts. Until we meet again......