So I know it's been forever since I have written on here. I think it's because when I first started this blog it was a way to vent all my emotional feelings. In the past little while I haven't felt the need to do so. I feel more at peace then I have in a long time. I think I am really growing and learning how to trust God.
I have always known that God loves me. I have always known that I am a child of god, so what has changed? I haven't quite put my finger on the reason, yet in my heart I feel a great change within me.
My heart feels fuller and more at peace. Although my arms still yearn for a baby of our own. I know with all of my heart that one day our dream of that will come true. How do I know this you ask? Because I have Faith that my Heavenly father answers my prayers. Faith that he knows what the desires of my heart are, and faith that he always keeps his promises.
This has not been the easiest thing to learn. I have had my struggles, frustrations, and a whole lot of tears through out this process. A process that I would never in a million years thought I would have to go through. I have learned so much through this journey, and my husband and I have stayed strong. It hasn't been easy. My heart has been torn in half and broken for a long time now. My tears have stained my pillows, and sometimes I have become numb. What gets me through all this heartache and pain is my Faith in prayer.
Prayer to a Heavenly Father who loves me, and who has promised me that one day our dream will come true. One day we will hold a beautiful child, and our hearts will be full. Prayer can be such a powerful thing. I have learned so much through my personal prayers with Heavenly Father.
I have had my good days and bad days. Mother's Day is always the hardest for me, each year it gets harder and harder. The ache never truly goes away, but each day I feel a little stronger. For now I just have Faith and leave my life in God's hands.
